Intrusive thoughts
05/02/2023 This week has been hella difficult! For many reasons and the main reason being that I mentally am not coping with my life now. I’m constantly bombarded by the fear of my thoughts and the fact that they are not good enough, that I am not good enough and that I am manifesting all this bullshit! Manifestation and intrusive thoughts are a match made in hell ! Yesterday I was shouting at my cupboard and cursing it for being too small, small here is an understatement - the cupboard was built with hobbit’s in mind. I have one tiny cupboard above my tiny kitchen workspace area, there is no room to prepare food and there is nowhere to store it! The intrusive thoughts are intensifying with my depressive state. My worst fears are sucking me dry of any joy. Think about your worst fear or something that absolutely disgusts you, now imagine that thought constantly poking and prodding you until you feel like screaming out loud for it to fuck off! Fun, right? I remember watchi...